Mother's Day

Ever since I was a little girl, I knew that the only thing I ever wanted to do was be a wife and a mother. I knew in my heart, that was my calling in life. The wife thing is over for now due to circumstances beyond my control, but I am blessed to be a mother. I have two very beautiful children who came into my life not the normal way (because I can never do anything normal!), but in a round about way. It wasn't easy getting them and it hasn't been easy raising them for sure. We have a long road ahead (teenage years...ugh!!!), but so far all of the heartache, love, laughter and tears has been worth it. I love my children more than I can even say. For Mother's Day my daughter wrote me a poem, my son made me a cute card and note holder and my mom helped them get me flowers. They are gorgeous flowers...purple...my favorite color! I asked them for one thing...to have one day where they don't fight. I got my wish! On Mother's Day they didn't fight at all and it was wonderful!!! Thank you my beautiful children and I love you so much!!!

My mom is amazing! She helps me out so much and I don't know what I would do without her. She takes care of my kids for me so I can work and save money on daycare. She is a great example on what a mother should be. She loves me no matter what and she is ALWAYS there for me. I have some deep feelings that are secret and I could never tell another soul, but I can tell my mom and she never judges me for them. She understands where I'm coming from and lets me say it. She is smart and beautiful and stubborn! lol I learned how to be a single parent from her because she raised two daughters on her own. Thank you so much Mom for all that you have done and all that you continue to do!

I love my stepmom! She is funny and quirky and she makes my dad happy! She loves us all and has taught me a lot! She was there for me during some really hard times and I appreciate that more than I can say. She and I have had some really great conversations and I love those times, even though they are few and far between. Even though I wasn't always nice to her growing up, she still loves me and is still here. I know that no matter what, she will always be there for us. I love you so much and I can't tell you enough how much I appreciate having you in my life!

Don't Touch

Lately at work I have been completely bored. I hate being bored at work. I feel useless. I prefer to work and I do my best work when I'm busy. The kind of job I'm in, I'm at the mercy of the public. If they aren't doing anything, neither am I. I have been dealing with boredom for quite some time now. Not only can a person go crazy and get burned out from constant stress, but also from constant boredom. Last week it got to me. I couldn't wait for my weekend!! It finally got here and what happened, my car broke. I couldn't believe it! Thankfully, it waited until I got home before it did though. I hate car problems. They always seem to come at the most inoportune times! I'm broke, so any extra expense is a HUGE stress! On Saturday my brother rescued me...he fixed my car with the only expense to me was the parts he needed for an oil change and a tune up! I was so grateful to him! Also on Saturday my computer crashed, my cell phone was acting up, my dvd player had no sound and my daughter got the stomach flu! I had to run all over town to find the stuff for my car because of course the one auto parts store was out of stuff. In my mom's car I hit the curb when I was pulling out of my parking space. I decided right then and there I was going home and not doing another thing, touching anything or going anywhere for the safety of us all! And that is exactly what I did. I went home, parked my unhappy butt on the couch and didn't move until evening when I had to get up to make my mom dinner for Mother's Day. Thankfully I didn't burn the house down!