I've had writers block again. It's kind of strange to have a block...I usually don't have a problem finding things to talk about. I guess I need to find something to do so I can write about it!
Yesterday, I forced myself to put on a tennis shoe and went for a bike ride. My foot still has a knot on the top so shoes still hurt, but I wrapped it up and dealt with it. It was so great to get out and ride yesterday! It was a bit windy, but it was cooler than it has been so that made for a nice ride around the neighborhood with my music playing in my ears. I have lost around 25 lbs over the last several months. Hearing the complements and FINALLY noticing a bit of a change myself, makes me want to keep going! Now, if I could just stick with the diet and exercise, I would be doing so much better!! I have a serious weakness for carbs...I'm a carb addict! The problem I find is, I do really good for a while, then I give in and have 1 little piece of something, a cookie, a mini candy bar, whatever...and it's all over! I eat all kinds of crap for a few days then I have to force myself to get back on that wagon!
I'm looking forward to this weekend. I took two days off work...I actually had forgotten I took the days off. Imagine my surprise and excitement when I saw the schedule and realized I only had to work 3 days this week!! I love when I take some time off when my kids are in school. It gives me a little bit of time to rest or do things with my friends for a change. I've found that when I'm home alone, I don't turn on the tv and sometimes I don't even turn on any music. I just have silence in my house. My mom used to do that when I was a kid and I never understood that. How can she sit in total silence?! Now, as a working, single mom myself, I get it! I like the quiet which I don't get at work and I definitely don't get at home!
Has anyone else noticed that people are a bit crabby lately? I'm not immune for sure...I've had my share of crabbiness the last couple of weeks. My good friend has also been crabby. When we talk on the phone it is either a lot of silence or snapping at each other...needless to say, we haven't talked much the last few days! lol My kids, people on the road, people in the stores...just a bunch of crabs. Must be something in the air! It's time for me to get over being crabby!
I guess that's all for now. I'm sure I will think of something much more interesting to write about later!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Weddings
I love weddings! I know there are a lot of people that don't like them, but I do. I love the promise of two people making a life together in love. I have been to weddings where you look at the couple and you think, I don't think they will last very long. I have also been to weddings where the couple is perfect for each other and you can actually feel the love they have for each other.
I went to such wedding last night. My nephew got married. He was such a handsome groom and his bride was beautiful! You could actually feel the love between them, in spite of them being nervous. :) If they realize how much work it is and are willing to work through whatever comes their way, then they will make it.
Another thing I love about weddings is seeing how everyone looks dressed up in their best, all the flowers, the cake, seeing family and friends and just letting loose and having fun! Last night was a lot of fun to visit with family, dance our behinds off and wish the happy couple well. The wedding was at a vineyard. The grounds were just beautiful with a pond, grass, lots of flowers and animals. The bride rode up in a horse drawn carriage and had her son walk her down the aisle. She was stunning in her white strapless dress with a dark purple sash and red shoes. Her daughter was a little angel in white and purple and her bridesmaid wore a dark purple strapless dress with red shoes. The groom and his guys looked very nice in their black and dark purple western tuxedo outfits with black cowboy hats. After the wedding the reception was held in a barn that was decorated with white lights, white table clothes with purple table runners, candles and red rose petals on the table. It was simple and beautiful.
The music was awesome! There was a mix of country, rock and oldies and we all had a blast boogying down...especially the little kids! My daughter, my niece and my little nephews tore up that dance floor along with a bunch of other kids! My son was too busy running around and eating! lol I danced with my brother and my dad and let me say, my dad is an awesome dancer! :) My sister was the photographer and I can't wait to see her pictures! She is awesome with the camera and I am so happy she is getting her business off the ground.
I wish my nephew and his bride a long life of happiness and love!
I went to such wedding last night. My nephew got married. He was such a handsome groom and his bride was beautiful! You could actually feel the love between them, in spite of them being nervous. :) If they realize how much work it is and are willing to work through whatever comes their way, then they will make it.
Another thing I love about weddings is seeing how everyone looks dressed up in their best, all the flowers, the cake, seeing family and friends and just letting loose and having fun! Last night was a lot of fun to visit with family, dance our behinds off and wish the happy couple well. The wedding was at a vineyard. The grounds were just beautiful with a pond, grass, lots of flowers and animals. The bride rode up in a horse drawn carriage and had her son walk her down the aisle. She was stunning in her white strapless dress with a dark purple sash and red shoes. Her daughter was a little angel in white and purple and her bridesmaid wore a dark purple strapless dress with red shoes. The groom and his guys looked very nice in their black and dark purple western tuxedo outfits with black cowboy hats. After the wedding the reception was held in a barn that was decorated with white lights, white table clothes with purple table runners, candles and red rose petals on the table. It was simple and beautiful.
The music was awesome! There was a mix of country, rock and oldies and we all had a blast boogying down...especially the little kids! My daughter, my niece and my little nephews tore up that dance floor along with a bunch of other kids! My son was too busy running around and eating! lol I danced with my brother and my dad and let me say, my dad is an awesome dancer! :) My sister was the photographer and I can't wait to see her pictures! She is awesome with the camera and I am so happy she is getting her business off the ground.
I wish my nephew and his bride a long life of happiness and love!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Foot Troubles
So, remember me telling you about my one person Lucy and Ethel show at my yard sale almost two weeks ago? Well, I still can't wear a regular shoe on my right foot. Last week I forced my running shoe on and did a workout in the park running around on my foot. It hurt, but I really wanted to do it so I worked through it. My foot still isn't better. I still have a bruise and I have a knot on the top of my foot. I was getting worried since it has been almost two weeks. I finally broke down and went to urgent care. They took xrays and asked me some questions and the physician's assistant was concerned that I fractured my foot. She gave me a referal to a podiatrist and sent me on my way with xrays in hand.
Luckily, they were really nice and got me in right away. The Doctor took a look at the xrays and pushed on my foot (ouch!) and told me I didn't break it. He said I just have a really bad bruise and the knot is part of the hemotoma working it's way to getting better. Since there is no padding on my foot, the thing that fell on it hit nerves and veins and it is very painful and takes a while to heal.
It's good it wasn't broken. I wouldn't have been able to drive and that would have been bad. Now I can still do my exercising too. I will really be glad when it starts feeling better so I can get my shoes back on and start walking/running again!
Luckily, they were really nice and got me in right away. The Doctor took a look at the xrays and pushed on my foot (ouch!) and told me I didn't break it. He said I just have a really bad bruise and the knot is part of the hemotoma working it's way to getting better. Since there is no padding on my foot, the thing that fell on it hit nerves and veins and it is very painful and takes a while to heal.
It's good it wasn't broken. I wouldn't have been able to drive and that would have been bad. Now I can still do my exercising too. I will really be glad when it starts feeling better so I can get my shoes back on and start walking/running again!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Dreams
I have always been told that when you think about someone who has died, that means they are with you and when you dream about them, they are trying to contact you from the other side of the veil.
As I have mentioned before, for so long when I would have dreams about my late husband, they were nightmares. The last dream I had about him was calm, peaceful and happy. It stayed with me for days and I would smile everytime I would think about the dream. Last night I had another dream about him. It was another dream of us together as a family. I was so happy to be with him and he was happy to be with me. Our kids were there with us too. I think he was trying to tell me that we are still a family and he still loves us no matter how things were in the end. I always have to remind myself that the man that was struggling so hard in the end was not the same man that I married. I love having happy dreams about him. I must have been missing him a lot yesterday. I went to a party last night and I wore the first ring he ever gave me. It is yellow gold with a heart shaped sapphire. It is a beautiful ring and I don't wear it very often. I usually only wear it when I feel like I need him with me. It is one of the few things that I have that is tangible to help me feel closer to him.
The other day I was talking to my good friend and he said something along the lines of, "Do people really believe there is someone out there for them that is everything? They really fall in love and devote themselves to each other?" He is still doubtful. I got teary eyed and I said, "Yes! I had that once. I found that one person that I wanted to be with forever." My question was, can we find it more than once in our lives?
A few times now I have had a dream about a no faced man. He is tall and gentle, but very much a man. He makes me feel like I am the only person in this world that matters and I feel loved when I am with him. I have never seen his face in my dreams, but I feel his love and his strength. I am hoping that someday soon I will meet him and I will recognize him by the way I feel around him.
I guess I have been feeling lonely lately and that is why I have been thinking about both of these men in my dreams. I'm not even close to finding with another man what I had with my late husband. Someone to have my back, to support me no matter what, to hold my hand, to give me hugs and kisses, to let me give that love, affection and support back to him, to make me feel like I MATTER in their life. I know that I will not find a man like him. He was truly unique and I know that everyone has their own unique qualities. I want to find someone that I can love for their own uniqueness and that he will love me back for mine. I deserve to be loved and so does the man in my dreams.
As I have mentioned before, for so long when I would have dreams about my late husband, they were nightmares. The last dream I had about him was calm, peaceful and happy. It stayed with me for days and I would smile everytime I would think about the dream. Last night I had another dream about him. It was another dream of us together as a family. I was so happy to be with him and he was happy to be with me. Our kids were there with us too. I think he was trying to tell me that we are still a family and he still loves us no matter how things were in the end. I always have to remind myself that the man that was struggling so hard in the end was not the same man that I married. I love having happy dreams about him. I must have been missing him a lot yesterday. I went to a party last night and I wore the first ring he ever gave me. It is yellow gold with a heart shaped sapphire. It is a beautiful ring and I don't wear it very often. I usually only wear it when I feel like I need him with me. It is one of the few things that I have that is tangible to help me feel closer to him.
The other day I was talking to my good friend and he said something along the lines of, "Do people really believe there is someone out there for them that is everything? They really fall in love and devote themselves to each other?" He is still doubtful. I got teary eyed and I said, "Yes! I had that once. I found that one person that I wanted to be with forever." My question was, can we find it more than once in our lives?
A few times now I have had a dream about a no faced man. He is tall and gentle, but very much a man. He makes me feel like I am the only person in this world that matters and I feel loved when I am with him. I have never seen his face in my dreams, but I feel his love and his strength. I am hoping that someday soon I will meet him and I will recognize him by the way I feel around him.
I guess I have been feeling lonely lately and that is why I have been thinking about both of these men in my dreams. I'm not even close to finding with another man what I had with my late husband. Someone to have my back, to support me no matter what, to hold my hand, to give me hugs and kisses, to let me give that love, affection and support back to him, to make me feel like I MATTER in their life. I know that I will not find a man like him. He was truly unique and I know that everyone has their own unique qualities. I want to find someone that I can love for their own uniqueness and that he will love me back for mine. I deserve to be loved and so does the man in my dreams.
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